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So lately I have been running myself a bit ragged.... But I am okay with that. I have been out alot and doing so much that I am rarely home. I didn't realize that this was a terrible problem. Despite the occasional feeling of exhaustion, I am happier and feel much better about myself because I am making plans to do the things I want instead of waiting around for them to happen. I have taken on a second job so I can afford the things I want and start to pay back debts owed.

So why do I feel as if others see this as a bad thing? I can't shake this want to seek approval from others. Usually it lurks in the back of my mind saying, "Are you really doing well? Are you sure? Your still not in school." And it continues to point out that things I'm not doing instead of the accomplishments. But I was getting better and focusing on what good I was doing. I KNOW I am doing what I WANT and what I think is best for ME. I think I just need to stop worrying about whether or not what I want is what others would approve of. I am a smart 21-year-old woman and I need to keep reminding myself of that. I need to stop taking "advice" as "assignments".

Busy October/November

New things happening in my life:

This Holiday Season is looking to be pretty jam packed and busy for me.

Last weekend I attended a really sweet Halloween Cocktail Party at Project Blancoyd. (I'm in the red and black pirate costume!!!) I indulged a little more than I should have but all in all it was a great time! Par-tay!

This weekend I will be attending UberCon in Piscataway, NJ. This will be my first time at a Gaming Convention and I am rather excited! Yippee!


The following week marks the kick-off for NaNoWrimo. There is a kick-off party at Capigiro on Thursday October 30th. And then I will actually begin writing my novel on Saturday November 1st. I'll be attempting to write 1600+ words a day for a total of at least 50,000 for the month. "50K! ALL THE WAY!".


Then October 31st I should be going to a Halloween/RPG Party. If we play what I am hoping to play, this will definitely be sweet! Heee!

Also on November 7th, my bestie from FL will be arriving in Philly and we will begin our belated celebration of her 21st Birthday! w00t!

On top of all of this, I just started a 2nd job. So not only will I be working M-F at the Law Firm from 9-5, I will be working a few shifts during the week and weekends as a reservationist at the new Stephen Starr Restaurant, Butcher and Singer. Woo Hoo!

::collapses from exhaustion::

So there ya have it folks. If you haven't seen me in a while and you wondering what happened to that silly girl Connie... there's your answer!

My Trip to Wildwood - Photo Entry

Creative Writing Exercises

My previous post "Patiently Persistant" was spurred on by my realization that I haven't written anything by way of creative fiction in quite some time. As I mentioned before I am attempting to write a novel during the month of November and I decided that until Nov 1st, I will be doing a few writing exercises as practice and I will be documenting them all here. Please feel free to swing by and read my little stories, suggest writing prompts, and/or offer constructive criticism.

Patiently Persistent

As the wind blows her hair off of her tear-stained face, I notice a glimmer of hope in her eyes. She understands what can and cannot be, yet she can't help but long for more. And behind her defeat there is already a new plan forming in her mind. A minuscule grain on which she will build until she has a new approach, a new way to make this work. She is hounded by fear and she knows that she may just be fooling herself again, setting herself up for failure. But she also knows that her love is real and her love is strong and she won't let herself give up without fighting. I hold her in my arms and tell her it will be okay. She rests her head on my shoulder and I can almost hear the gears in her head turning, searching for the answers, persistent as always. "Patience, my Love." I hold her close a while longer but we both know I must be on my way. I leave her to her thoughts and I pray that she can find peace. As I walk away I feel hope arise in me that she just may find a way to make this work out. Or maybe I am just as much a fool.

NaNoWriMo

My friend Joanna informed me a little while back that National Novel Writing Month (or NaNoWriMo as it is called by participants) is November. www.nanowrimo.org

During the month of November, participants will attempt to write a 50,000 word novel (about 170 pages) without editing themselves. Just write. On the website you will find forums and communitys that are "competing" with one another to reach the 50,000 word goal. You will also find within these community's events such as kick-off parties at the end of October to meet fellow NaNo's, new and old. There are also write-in's where neighboring NaNo's meet up weekly to encourage one another.

So far I have pulled 2 friends into NaNo-dom with me this year. Pann and Kristina. Pann lives here in Philly but Kristina lives in FL and we have decided to have our own little competition against one another. She will actually be visiting me during the month of November so she will be attending one of our write-ins with me too! Yay!

Scary Good Mood

Ever have one of those days where you are just in a really good mood and you can't wipe the permanent (genuine) smile off of your face? I am having one of those days! I woke up this morning about 6am and stayed under the covers for about another hour. Got up and did my hair in a different style that was more edgy than I am used to. Also decided to just go for it and wear my red lipstick that has been sitting in my makeup case untouched. I usually put it on and then take it off because I am afraid of it being to bold or coming off drag-queen-ish. But I am so glad I went for it today because, according to coworkers, I can pull it off. ^_^ Yay! Also got a great reception on the new hairstyle. I feel so hot today! Hee hee! My one freind said my hairstyle is the "Perpetual Sex Hair" look. LoL. It's short and spiked in the back and I took my bangs and did the lil poof on the top front. I'll have to take a picture later today to post because I feel so fabulous.

So I know that my mini-makeover is a contributor to my fantastic mood. I also think that I am happy because I am at the reception desk today. Our usual Receptionist called out so I get to cover for her and answer phones and greet clients. I like this much more than I like my filing work (even thought I really do enjoy my job) because there is more to do out here and in between tasks I can jump online as I am right now. When filing I can only sit and wait until someone gives me more work.