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So lately I have been running myself a bit ragged.... But I am okay with that. I have been out alot and doing so much that I am rarely home. I didn't realize that this was a terrible problem. Despite the occasional feeling of exhaustion, I am happier and feel much better about myself because I am making plans to do the things I want instead of waiting around for them to happen. I have taken on a second job so I can afford the things I want and start to pay back debts owed.

So why do I feel as if others see this as a bad thing? I can't shake this want to seek approval from others. Usually it lurks in the back of my mind saying, "Are you really doing well? Are you sure? Your still not in school." And it continues to point out that things I'm not doing instead of the accomplishments. But I was getting better and focusing on what good I was doing. I KNOW I am doing what I WANT and what I think is best for ME. I think I just need to stop worrying about whether or not what I want is what others would approve of. I am a smart 21-year-old woman and I need to keep reminding myself of that. I need to stop taking "advice" as "assignments".