Crazy Week!

A lot of crazy things have happened this week and despite how badly I was feeling before, I know that it is all for the best.

The worst of it all was Nick calling me on Sunday to break up with me. He went on about how I have changed and told me everything that's wrong with me. I was in shock because I had tried to break things off when I was last in FL in June and he wanted to try to make it work. Well I found out through a friend that he has been seeing someone else and he just didn't have the nerve to tell me the truth. When he called Sunday he said there was no one else, but that he wasn't sure that he loved me anymore. I asked if this meant we weren't going to talk anymore and he said he wanted to keep in touch. So I am entirely shocked by this other girlfriend thing but at the same time I now see that I never knew Nick. We dated for 3 years and 7 months and as soon as some new girl comes along that gives him attention, he ditches me. I am hurt, yes, but now I can get over him because I see that he wasn't worth my love, my time, and my effort. It also makes sense now that he wasn't there for me when I would call... possibly because he was too busy with this other girl. I know I am better off, I know I deserve better, and I am trying to move on. I just want to get past this whole feeling of betrayel and live my life. I no longer want to speak to him and I don't want any explanations. I just want to heal.